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2009-09-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

Its good to be back home....

I was off to Long Pillah last for 4 days. Ooohh i just released i missed kampong so much. I took a few picture around as well.. Will be uploaded later.

Tik Tok

2009-08-17T20:56:00.002+08:00

The time is moving fast and this post comes only after 3 months of my previous post is uploaded. I don't know if i should just stop this right now or just continue as it is. After all, i just blog more on what is happening to my life which i think that is not that interesting for the public to know.

Today is not a good day. I am feeling dizzy and i couldn't do much at work either. I end up having a chit chat with my boss on a few things coming in future. I kinda missed my ex-boss :) but well, work has to be done and i am happy to have all the good people around me.

There were time where i feel like quitting my job... :). Hell no! I cannot do that for sure. How i wish i can go to work or just stay at home with Clarisse as i wish... but still. I have to obey the rules and regulation at work and i need to be strong in my responsibility as a working mother :). It is not easy at all and life is suddenly change after you have you new born.

~~ monday blues~~

Why is everyone leaving?

2009-06-19T08:34:00.003+08:00

I have been here since February 2008. Time pass by too fast! It's like that, woke-up from a deep sleep and realise that all the good people around me are leaving. Leaving for good ofcourse. Life is short and those people that used to be so closed and dearly to me are not here with me and i truly missed those moment with them.

Now it's time for one of my good collegue.. so called my boss is leaving next week. -_-
When i look back and think of what i have been through all these years, i know that the most important thing to built a strong and good relationship with everyone around you is TRUST.

It does come to my mind sometimes... thinking and say's... how about me??? How far more can i go?

I suddenly feel so lonely....

I close my eyes and pray...... AMEN!

Its' a wonderful feelings.

2009-05-21T12:56:00.002+08:00

Talking with kids and having those reaction towards you really means a lot. Clarisse is almost 3 months old now. We discovered a few things change every week. She now can response to you when you talk to her. Is a wonderfull feeling looking at her smiling with her mouth movements as if she is trying to get a long with the conversation. Tears of joy are in my eyes whenever i see her smilling at me. I love her so much!

Mum tell me a story about my nephew Noel when one day she is having a conversation with him. Bellow is the part that attract my attention.

Mum: Noel, don't be naughty... listen to your mom. God know everything you do so you have to be good.

Noel: God knows everything, why don't he teach me to speak Kayan?

Kids are just so cute and innocent :). My mum just reply to him saying *It's your mom who don't teach you to speak Kayan* and laugh.

I can't wait to see Clairisse talking :). I just love this feeling.

Award!! yay! Eh.. apa kahh...

2009-04-19T14:57:00.007+08:00

It's Sunday and it's damn hot --_--

Got tagged :) and here it goes...

The Rules:

1. Put the award on your blog
2. Put the blogger link who give you the award on your blog
3. Give it to another blogger
4. Put the link of bloggers who you give the ward
5. Leave your message/comment on their blog so they know you give them award

My Ans:

1. The person who give me the awards : Pattirmina
2. People i am going to give this award to : Senorita, Daniel, Apple, Alex, Carol, Eunice and Jason.

Enjoy peeps hehehe..

To patty : >> Usi' kui nyemugen response to tagged nih ba.. especially the rules..hehe.. apa2 jak la :D. I assumed that i am not the first 7 person who comment on your post so i only accept that second award. Ok la tu kan.. ^_-- <<

101 Things Change After You Have A Baby.

2009-04-12T15:05:00.003+08:00

This is ONE out of 101 things change when you/i have a baby :D.

1. YOUR DOG THAT USED TO BE YOUR BABY NOW IS JUST A DOG!

This is what had happen to Ramses.

Ramses used to be the one who sit beside the driver when we went out to the beach or somewhere...

He used to stay in the house. He even sleep on my bed (he do that when i am busy doing some work in the kitchen or outdoor - bastard! lolz).

He always be the one people will give attention too... like a Hero's or something. Ceewah!!

But now..... he is just a Dog!!

Its raining heavily with a loud thunder storm 5 minutes back (before i wrote this post :p ), and there he is sitting outside... poor Ramses. He is now being banned from coming into the house.

I grab my camera and called his name *Ramses* as i try to shoot his macho good looking picture as i used to do before.... he never look at me and he just give me that looked. (maybe he is taking to himself... *huh... boring* :D)

Sorry Ramses, it's not that we don't love you... but we love Clarisse more that we love you.

Teee heee....

*huggies to Ramses*

well i have not done that for quite sometimes....

We still love you Ramses :D.

This little fellow is GONE!!

2009-04-11T23:34:00.003+08:00

In memory of one little dogie i used to have.

Brother was here last Monday and he inform me that Vee is Dead --_--. Mom leave it alone, nobody fed and that cause it starving to death.
Poor little dogie, cute and chubby. *sob sob* i was crying.. i am serious. I do cry really. You don't believed me?? nvm!!

The picture up there is just to remind back the memory of having it in the house before i send them back home to mom. I was actually wanted to keep it with me but a friend promise to give me one so i let it go. But now i end up getting NOTHING.

--_--

so sad...

Its getting too hot around here.

2009-04-10T14:03:00.002+08:00

Miri is getting too hot these day. What cause to this?? Global warming? LOLZ. People never care of this issue but when it come to what we are experiencing now, then we tent to complain a lot.

I still remember the Earth Hour the other day.. damn $#!%, Miri citizen never care to turn their light off. (including me... :p) Well, forget about that. :D

I am staying at home for almost one and a half month now. Seriously, its too hot. I couldn't stand it. Pitty my little girl. She is having fever a few days back after her one month injection. By the way she is getting better today. Its does hurt me as well when i look at that little cute face.. i wish i am the one who sick.. not her. -__-
I learn a few thing due to this as well. I am alone with her this month so i have to do everything on my own everyday until hubby is back from work. Good things that he can cook then i can consentrate on my little girl. Owh.. i guess i wrote too much on this.... i know i am out of my titlle up there. :)

Ohh... if you ask me which one do i prefer.. Hot Sunny Day or Cold Rainy Day?? I would choose Cold Rainy Day.

God i miss the rain!!

Off Work.

2009-03-15T10:20:00.002+08:00

Peeps!! i am off work fro two months starting from March 5th 2009 for my new born baby girl Clarisse Carrie :). Back to work early May ^_^

New Site!!

2009-02-21T19:44:00.000+08:00

I have been wanting to move to a new site for ages. I don't have the time to do so until now and this is actually due to *kemalasan yang teramat sangat* too. :D

Is it that difficult???

2009-02-16T11:56:00.001+08:00

I am just wondering why are some people just can't discipline themselves. Back to that question. Is it that difficult?? Why is it so hard for you to do so when you expect people to do what ever you want as you please.

Well people, you have to Grow Up and get some balls!! Sorry my language!

I am a human being so i have feelings! What happen does upset me very much!

I am crying inside and you people out there, stop judging me. I know what i am doing and i have been keeping everything to myself. I don't know how long can i stand to this.. i just hope God will make a way for me.

I need a Good Job!! I want a Better Pay!!

2009-02-04T21:08:00.004+08:00

Ooo Lord i need lots lots of money!!

1. To pay my monthly bills - the monthly bills is growing every month. End of the month is the best moment of the month for almost everyone. But me???? Hell NO!! End of the month will always remind me how poor i am when i have to transfer my money to pay this and that. Yes that's how life suppose to be. wtf!

2. To pay that black Savvy which is almost 2 and a half year old! - That black savvy need a lot of treatment lolz. Changing tire and there is something that we need to do with it since we are having problem with a few things. That will cost us a thousand plus where we can get the same service for only a few hundred for other Proton Car. Crapp crapp crapp!! I really need money. I wish i will win the loteri this month and once this is sattle i can absolutely say *phieww* (but i dont play loteri at all)

3. For the coming little gurl / guy (just in case it happen to be a guy tho the doctor has confirm its going to be a girl) - I got to give a happy face for this reason :) :D. Yes, of course i am hoping for the best for the little one. I will give whatever i have... for sure..

4. To buy a few piece of cloths - Shopping?? Oooh yeah! I have not done that for quite sometimes. You dont believed me? I am telling you the true.. I hate to tell lie... this is the truth above the truth. In addition to that, because i add in a lots of weight... and i do really need a new cloths :D. Now who to blame?? My coleague say's *got to blame the daddy and the little one* teee heeeeee i am kind of agree at her. hehe....

5. To pay my study loan - OMG i almost forget to add this on the list. :s *scretch head* This one is of course supper important for me to take care off.

6. To buy my personal labtop - Ahh yes i need a labtop... for what?? I dont know but i just love to have my own property. :p *what a stupid reason*

7. To buy a new mobile phone - I want to have a new mobile phone since i have been using this SONY Z550i for almost 3 years now. I need a 3g phone with a good functioning camera and a wifi services, mp3 player and with a huge memory card of course. Oh well what is the best latest model in town now? I prefer Nokia and Sony.... :D

8. To bla bla bla..... - well human being will never be satisfied of what they have. That's just the evil part of me speaking when i start to imagine of having this and that to fulfill my wish. But life is not that easy.

Tired!!

2009-02-02T13:19:00.002+08:00

Feeling exhausted! I have to run to the clinic for my blood check-up again this month. What pisssss me of is that, i have to repeat it all over again :( .

The appointment is like 7:30am, 12:00pm, 4:30pm and 9:30pm. *mana tak letih....*

Next Wednesday will be another appointment.

Urghh.. i just can't wait for the little guy/girl to arrived :D

Word of The Day!

2009-01-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

Avoid pills to released tense :)

Ornate Horned Frog.

2009-01-17T22:00:00.004+08:00

We discover something new about one species of frog a few days back. We were doing some cleaning outside the house, arranging all the flowers and such... I was trying to empty one of the vase since the flower is already dead. I found out something strange moving and its seems responding to the stick i hold in my hand. I can't barely see what it is because it was all covered with dirt and its all wet.

I told my hubby to look at it. It happen to be an ugly weird frog and i never seen something like that before. It's live underneath the vase and i am wondering that how the hell did it's go and bury itself.

We told Wenn when we were having a conversation with her on cam 2 days after that and she make a research on it on the internet. The picture below has a few things similar to what we saw but it is not exactly the same.

Ornate Horned Frog

Hiding Places

(In the wild, ornates bury themselves in the leaf litter; in captivity, we have to provide them with something they can hide under. You will also find that they will manage to half bury themselves under the clumps of moss and sprigs of artificial plants when they are out of the water. Place live or artificial plants so that they overhang the water saucer; this will increase the frog's sense of security and reduce stress.)

That's Suck!

2009-01-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

It's kind of hard to express the feelings. What is sucks?? Well ya, let me start with a question.

1. Woman, what are u going to do if you found out your husband are having affairs behind your back?? At the same time, he is doing that in front of his brother (you brother in law) and his friends all knows about it.

2. Young woman, what is in your mind??? Hanging out with somebody's husband and acting like........ yuuukkkksss i hate to say this but.. shame on you!!

Dear woman out there, it ain't easy if this happen to us. We will only realise it is hard to accept that especially if you do really give all you have for the one that mean to be you love live. I cannot say anything on how would you see that he has change.. but if your husband start to act like you are not important to him... like your interest or request is no more important to him.. then, that's one of the sign that he has already lost his attention towards you. It happen due to various of reason and one of it is because he has someone else out there that attract his attention more then you do.

So women!! Beware!

Office Affairs!!

2009-01-14T12:32:00.003+08:00

Office affairs happen in almost every organisation all over the world. Why? What tempted them to do so? This happen to both category of people which is single and even merriage. Most of the organisation in this country don't encourage the staff to involved in this kind of relationship but it's still happen.

Some goes worse till end up with getting divorce with their husband/wife (for those who merriage). What should the company do with this? Nuthing?

News will always spread very fast when the people heard of any gossip happen around them in the office. Especially when the realationship become to the action where the partners express their intimate in the workplace such as their own office room, washroom, staircase, outside of the office building and etc etc. without knowing or purposely ingoring with knowing that they are being watch and judge. This looks bad/ugly/yukkkss ofcourse for the person especially if they are merriage.

But for sure nuthing can be done. That is human nature....

2008 Staff Annual Dinner

2008-12-22T13:03:00.005+08:00

Its already December now. We are having our Annual Dinner again. :).

Date : 11th December 2008

Venue : Marina Bay

Time : 5:00pm till 10:00pm

Dressing : White Top with Blue Jeans :)

The Marina Bay Restorant at 6:30pm.

On the way to Marina Bay. Urgghh.. i hate those pimples :s

While waiting for some friends.

In the hall.. after having a plate of food. The food is good i guess :).

With senz, she left for KL for her new job the next day. Bon Voyage girlz... all the best for your new career!! Am gonna miss you :).. *sob sob*

OMG!! I am so so soooo urrmm.. lolz *gemuk* :p

Ni semua org bujang sebelah aku nih.. hehehe

The Aussie gone crazy :D

Went home earlier just after they finish the lucky draw :). I went home empty this year.. so unlucky. This is the first time i got nuthing. Tak pe lah... :).

I Miss Vie & Bie :)

2008-12-21T18:28:00.012+08:00

A friend come over to the house yesterday. He brought a pair of cute puppies along. OMG its so cute. He ask me if i want to take care of one of them. Oh yes! Of course. Hehe... even thought i have promise to sister that i am going to take one of their puppy. :)

This morning this friends called, asking again if i really want the puppy. Eerrmm coz, he is going to give it to his uncle if i don't want it. Wait! I thought i have already told him i want that puppy. Duuhhh.. its okay then, i will take the one that i promise to sist. instead.

Here there are the puppies that sist wanted to give out to mom actually but i am interested to take one to be Ramses wife... (konon). Hehehehe...

*sangatlah comot dan kotor... kasian...*

This lucky bastard attract my attention. So i told sist if i can bring its home for one week. :p Sist says ok but she remind me that i must return its as i promise. Ok lah.. ok lah.. hihi...

Brought its home and clean it up. Urmm.. :). Everyone Love's Vie (we give its a named called Vivian) :D

Look at that.... Vie is so small.

Playing around at the living room, Vie does entertain us pretty much.. as Ramses become an old lazy dog now... haha

Kisses to the camera... Look into the eyes... i wonder what is on Vie mind.

Messing around with the slipers... *lalu sik jumpa sebelah selepar aku* huh...

Now sleep... after tired running here and there.

OMG its so cute... errmm...

durrrr....

Lucky you puppy, your sist must be missing you now.

Awwww...

mwaaahhh mwaaahh... i love Vie... :)

Cam whore.... lolz

Its already one week that Vie have been staying with us. Its time for me to return its back.... Oh i'm gonna miss Vie.. not only me... everyone in the house dont feel line sending its back to Sist. So i called sist telling that, maybe i will take another one for one week and will send them both together :p.

Sist agreed. Yayyy!!

A confuse little doggy...

Here there are... bully time :D

We named this one Bie (Full name : Bibie). hehe... Its try to play around with that ugly thing... urgghh...

We only manage to take a snap of Vie little ugly butt... lolz

Aww... look at that..

Its look really fatt but it actually not.

Notice something new there?? :)

I have send them back to sist as i promise. --_--

Now i miss them.. the latest news i heard from sist is, they start to have that *kutu* again on them... urrgghh.... i have done so much... they were so clean when i send them back to sist.

Huh.. !! *-*

Christmas is Coming!!

2008-12-20T13:50:00.003+08:00

Its saturday.... a few weeks back, i often went of to sist. place in saturday.. but today, i just feel like staying home and do necessary cleaning especially the kitchen. I hate it when to kitchen get so messy. Almost half a day... spend my time arranging and cleaning whatever is needed. Phiewww....

Again, this year am not going to be able to go back for Christmas and we are not going to do Open House either. My parents are plaining to come over and visit us so do my sister from Bintulu.

If i can carry all those furniture in the living room today, it should have been arrange nicely now. But, i just can't because its too heavy for me to handle. :).

Ermm.. well this sound boring i know.... its just the way it is. I dont know what am i going to do up to the Christmas day. Perhaps visiting so some friends houses :).

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all!!

Have a nice one.

Why?

2008-12-04T10:26:00.003+08:00

Why do have to diet??

Because i just came back from the dentist!

I went up for the check-up again last Monday and its take so long to do the complete round and i really hate this. Pffttt what to do. Then i have an appointment on Wednesday to see the dentist. They did something and i was told not to chew anything on that particular teeth for one day. What the heck!! So i have to prevent myself from taking any food espeacially meat :).

Because i have gain a few kg's and its start to worried me for sure!

Gaining a few kg's in 6 months ofcourse does worry me. I went out shopping with my sist last weekend.. and she was just so supprise looking at me :D. Meeehh dont laugh at me... and the comments to me was *i am so surprise that u can gain that much kg's as u are the most slim among us since then* :) Well what can i say... lolz

Because being fat can cause high blood preasure!!

High Blood Preasure???? OMG.. i was so worry when i heard that from my sister and i need to really need to go for checkup to make sure that i dont have all of those difficulties.

So what did i do now??

I went to work and *tapau* some food from the Canteen. I usually take Fried Rice in morning and ONLY take half of what i *tapau* and keep the other half for my lunch. :) Other than that, i just take water to complete the diet.

Balancing diet?? I was doin that for the last few months and i end up adding a few kg's that i thing is not necessary. :D

I Might Move to Wordpress.

2008-11-13T20:57:00.002+08:00

I have make an observation a few time to wordpress and i have decided to make a move there once i have enough time to do everything.

Will update everyone on that too.

Happy Birthday!!

2008-11-13T20:47:00.002+08:00

13 November 2008

Happy Birthday Dear..... I don't wish you early in the morning but i bought you a delicious Cheese Cake. :)

Right Here!

2008-11-06T21:30:00.001+08:00

"Right Here (Departed)"

[Intro]
When you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the breaks starting,
When the clouds are far departed,
U'll be right here with me,

[Darkchild & Brandy]
B rock...
Darkchild..
We back..
U'll be right here with me

[Bridge]
You'll be right here with me
oh, oh [x16]
You'll be right here with me

[Verse 1]
When your life is going to fast,
off the train tracks
I can slow it down, oh
just when you think your bout to turn back
'Stead you might crash
I'll be your ground, oh

[Chorus]
Oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the brakes started,
And when the clouds above Departed,
You'll be right here with me,
And when your tears are dry from cryin,
And when the worlds turned silent,
So when the clouds above Departed,
You will be right here with me,
Oh oh [Repeat x10]

I will be right here with you
you'll be right here with me
[Repeat]

[Verse 2]
When your trapped and there's just no key,
And you can't breathe,
I breathe for you,
The fire's got you down on both knees,
And the walls are closing in but I will,
Break it through,
And when you feel alone,
I'm a be at home,
Whenevers comes and go,
You know I got you,

[Chorus]
Oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
And when you see the brakes started,
And when the clouds above Departed,
You'll be right here with me,
(You'll see the sun)
And when your tears are dry from crying, crying,
And when the worlds turned silent...silent,
So when the clouds above Departed,
You will be right here with me,

[Bridge]

I will be here right beside you,
Every step you take (yea),
I will be your strength your shelter,
Shield you from the rain,
[Repeat]

[Chorus]
(oh when you feel),
oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
and when you see the brakes started,
and when the clouds above Departed,
you'll be right here with me (right here),
and when your tears are dry from crying,
and when the worlds turned silent,
so when the clouds above Departed,
you will be right here with me,

I will be right here with you,
You'll be right here with me,

Thirty-two things that change when you have a baby

2008-11-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

What changes when you have a baby? A better question may be: What doesn't change?

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.

2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.

3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.

4. You respect your body ... finally.

5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.

6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own.

7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.

8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.

9. Your heart breaks much more easily.

10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.

11. Every day is a surprise.

12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)

13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.

14. You become a morning person.

15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.

16. You discover how much there is to say about one tooth.

17. You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth.

18. You now know where the sun comes from.

19. You'd rather buy a plastic tricycle than those shoes that you've been dying to have.

20. You realize that although sticky, lollipops have magical powers.

21. You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night.

22. Silence? What's that?

23. You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having.

24. You discover an inner strength you never thought you had.

25. You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule.

26. You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one.

27. Your dog — who used to be your 'baby' — becomes just a dog.

28. You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late.

29. You learn that taking a shower is a luxury.

30. You realize that you can love a complete stranger.

31. You find yourself wanting to make this world a better place.

32. If you didn’t believe in love at first sight before, now you do!

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