My lips are zip... but my heart always say something.

It's 2.37am Saturday morning. I was suppose to sleep a few hours back but i couldn't close my eyes. Came back from work a lil bit late today due to some extra work that need to be done. I make 30 to 40 call out today. Again there will be another Workshop organized by Shell.

I don't know what to say but deep in my heart i am sad. Feeling lonely... i hope my family is around. God why do i have to be here all alone? The time where i need someone to stay closed to me. What should i do... maybe its good to keep my mouth shut and swallow everything even though its hurts me for sure.

***** what i wrote above was on Saturday Night.********

Monday's has come... its 9.59pm now. I am tired and exhausted but i don't feel like i wanna sleep yet. Something bothered me on my mind. I feel Sad and Lonely but no one is here to talk to me. I wish mum is here........ After all the thing that i have been through.. the will always times that i need mum here. When i need something.. mum is there to listed to me. When i am sick.. mum is there to take care and when i feel bad.. mum is always there to comfort me.

But now i am all alone. I wish i just can disappear for good or just when to sleep till everything is completely gone. This is life.... live life to the fullest as if there is no tomorrow and once you make you decision.. you are going to live with it for the rest of your life.

I am not feeling so well..... and nobody is here... God help me.. Why do i have to be so sensitive! Grow up Kate!! Be Strong!!

~~~~>> the positive thoughts is always there....

A lil talk to him.

Dear God...

I know i have not done this for quite a while. Having a conversation with U seems not to be my big priority as i always did long time ago.

But at this moment of time.. i really like to thank you for being there and always keep my mind to get myself back step to the real world. There are to many dreams in mind that i feels like i have been failed to achieved... God.. i forgot that i have a big give that God give to me..the most precious gift that will never ever fades away.

Keep me strong dear Lord. Amen!

DEAR GOD

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line. Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find. While I recall all the words you spoke to me. Can't help but wish that I was there. Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around. when I'm much too far away. We all need that person who can be true to you. But I left her when I found her. And now I wish I'd stayed'. Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired. I'm missing you again oh no. Once again.

There's nothing here for me on this barren road. There's no one here while the city sleeps and all the shops are closed. Can't help but think of the times I've had with you. Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around when I'm much too far away. We all need that person who can be true to you. I left her when I found her. And now I wish I'd stayed'. Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired. I'm missing you again oh no.. Once again.

Some search, never finding a wayBefore long, they waste away. I found you, something told me to stay. I gave in, to selfish ways. And how I miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade...A lonely road, crossed another cold state line. Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around when I'm much too far away. We all need the person who can be true to you. I left her when I found her. And now I wish I'd stayed' Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no... Once again